Thankful

I’m so thankful for immunosuppressants, I honestly don’t know what I’d do without them. Although they come high risk and those bloody blood tests that first need doing weekly are a pain, it’s been worth it. For me I was struggling so bad that that cons of immunosuppressants were and are worth the risk. I’ve [...]

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Fake it till you make it?

When you want to and try to be present in life but just want hide under the covers. When you want to achieve so much but have limitations. Those things I long to achieve may not happen but they also might but the timeline is unpredictable. That’s frustrating to me, but it’s life. I have [...]

I’m sick of being invisible

Towards the end of last year became the start of the beginning for me. The real essence of it, I found hope. I started to believe that I could live a full life. Who knows when it could be but I'm at the start and that's something. My journey of recovery has been all over [...]

Am I A Fraud?

Am I A Fraud?I advocate self care but find myself short in enforcing it myself.  As my self care week went down the drain and all the work that I had put in since leaving hospital in putting myself first and being compassionate to myself went down with it; I find myself at the beginning. [...]

Self Care 

Having a difficult week, I forced myself to attend yoga on Sunday. This sunday was Women's Circle which was focusing on forgiveness. Starting off with yoga nidra we then went into mediations for forgiveness. Although I did not feel any forgiveness move within me, whether outwards or inwards, I did feel something else. My mind [...]

Let’s Be Honest….

Okay let's be honest, life isn't waiting for me. Life doesn't wait for us because we have an illness, life continues to zoom by without thought. The one thing that has struck me the most is that work does not wait, you'd think there would be an element of empathy or genuine concern.  I've been [...]

Sorry Not Sorry

So why are we apologising all the time? Especially when were apologising for things we are not sorry for. Things that we cannot control don't make us bad people.  I switched off my communication and when I when I switch if back on my automatic response is to apologise for not getting in touch right [...]