OCD Awareness Week, Day 2

I realised it marks a year since I made this account. An account I made to share experiences and connect with others who can relate. I feel defeated in so many ways with, I guess call them illnesses i’m dealing with, but a part of me keeps nudging me. It’s pushing me to realise my [...]

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Fake it till you make it?

When you want to and try to be present in life but just want hide under the covers. When you want to achieve so much but have limitations. Those things I long to achieve may not happen but they also might but the timeline is unpredictable. That’s frustrating to me, but it’s life. I have [...]

Hair loss, Hair thinning & Trichotillomania

Where to start? I've dealt with trich for many years, sometimes I wonder if people notice it. I wonder if they notice me doing it rather than the end result. I pull out my eyebrows and hair, I used to pull out my eyelashes. It's such an innate thing that sometimes I don't realise I'm [...]

I’m sick of being invisible

Towards the end of last year became the start of the beginning for me. The real essence of it, I found hope. I started to believe that I could live a full life. Who knows when it could be but I'm at the start and that's something. My journey of recovery has been all over [...]

Coming Up For Air – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

My day to day struggles with obsessive compulsive disorder are hard enough, but during this time of year, the christmas period I struggle a lot more. I always associate christmas with high anxiety in the sense that one of my obsessions is with safety and then in turn the compulsion of checking. I feel it [...]

Am I A Fraud?

Am I A Fraud?I advocate self care but find myself short in enforcing it myself.  As my self care week went down the drain and all the work that I had put in since leaving hospital in putting myself first and being compassionate to myself went down with it; I find myself at the beginning. [...]

Self Care 

Having a difficult week, I forced myself to attend yoga on Sunday. This sunday was Women's Circle which was focusing on forgiveness. Starting off with yoga nidra we then went into mediations for forgiveness. Although I did not feel any forgiveness move within me, whether outwards or inwards, I did feel something else. My mind [...]